Sunday, July 31, 2011

The Prejudice...


…It was pre-dawn.  The skyline had a beautiful azure due to the overnight drizzling; A chill in the usual breeze and a peculiar silence in her room. The book was lying open through the page she was reading last night. An I-pod was lying still on her computer desk. A bowl of her usual snacks of peanuts and jaggery was claimed by ants till now. A glass of water half full residing just besides it. And there she slept on her chest with her black and grey checkered boxers and a simple white sleeveless t-shit.  It has been quite a while since she had a peaceful sleep. Each night it would be one more effort for her to fall asleep. And today, was no different. She twitched, and then turned sides. Her eyes were sore.  She laid there with apathy and a blank mind. The moment her mind wandered, it nestled onto one person- HIM. The sole reason of her state right now. Person who had made her like that. He; who made her cry like a baby; crying yet cannot explain why. And yet she was invariably in love with him. No matter what he did, she couldn’t agree to hate him.  The thought flowed from the memories back to one single question, she had thought of almost every single day: Why does she love him? There was not a single prominent quality in him that she liked. Neither had she liked his persona nor any of his attributes. But she loved him. Crazy, one would definitely say. Even she thought it was pointless and crazy. Yet there was something…something which was not easy to know of, which was holding her back. Not as if she did not strive to move on. It was practical. After about 4 years of so-called relationship and continuous fights between them due to different temperaments; usually more aggressive just because till that time both had started to loathe the idea of talking with each other; they were practically in a cold-war nevertheless they would talk. Sometimes with I-would-prefer-dying -rather than-talk –with-you periods between them. This usually meant avoiding each other for few months and eventually end up talking again. And the odd part was she didn’t know if he is normally that psycho or just behaving like one. She didn’t know any of the things which were going on currently with her, or which happened to her. She just wanted to be relieved. Relieved from the heaviness of the heart. Relieved from the melancholy of the emotions. The unmanageable tension and her pregnant thoughts day in and day out. But where was the answer? What was that one thing that behold her from being happy?  She knew that happiness is within oneself and all that and she tried everything but in vain. It was first blush by the time she was back to her consciousness of her vicinity. Her mom had called her from the kitchen for morning tea, wiping her tears she went with a bright smile on her face.

2 comments:

  1. He woke up at 4 o'clock with a heavy head. Not sure why he was drinking so much the previous night. He wanted to complete the new book he was writing so that he could reach it out to her before she finished the last one.

    The azure skyline made the head even more heavy because it reminded him of the good times he shared with her. There obviously were the not so good times, but that was something he hadn't been able to decipher. Why was life always a roller coaster? The I-would-prefer-dying-rather-than-talk periods had started to become longer nowadays. But when the eventual peak of wow-the-talks-are-still-stimulating period happened, they helped him live again.

    After all the fights and the disagreements, his emotions were more or less dead now. You could see him staring blankly at a wall for hours together. Bystanders would put him down as a crazy person, but little did they know that in the blank stare, he was reliving all the happy moments he had spent with her.

    The one question that he tried to shove away, but that always made it to the front was "What is Love?" And yes, where was the answer? Is there really any answer to this?

    Is Love - running down and searching for a 24 7 medical shop when she called him with a throbbing pain in her stomach?
    Is Love - searching for yet another way to surprise her at midnight on her birthday?
    Is Love - making her smile by playing her favorite numbers (we don't need no education) on the guitar when she was tensed up for the physics exam the next day?
    Is Love - waiting up for her without complaining for hours together at the regular meeting spot?
    Is Love - doing the stupid Drawing assignments twice (without GT) so that she might save some time to complete the book she was reading?
    Or Is Love - after a long period of no contact - going to her house at 6 AM, helping her mom make the perfect cuppa tea that she likes (dash of ginger included) and then rushing out and on the way telling her mom to call her for the morning tea?

    Hmmm He couldnt figure for the life of him. Love bites! It sure does.

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  2. This could become the counter part of the story ! impromptu writing Uday.. :) Totally nice..

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